It Is Possible...

I ohrealise that i normally post a lot of depressing crap on here but this is a happy post.
This time last year i was really down all the time. i was crying myself to sleep nearly every night, i was faking a smile every day, i was really struggling with self harm and people were starting to find out about it, the voices started and my head was the scariest place i knew.
Now i am truely happy. my smile is real, i am loving life, i have managed 5 months without cutting even though it has been one of the hardest things ive ever done and i am so proud of myself for turning my life around. if i can do it, then so can you. if i got through without the anti depressants i was given, then so can you. yes its hard, but its possible and its the best thing i have ever done.

OUCH....

Im lay in bed with my feet swollen and bruised from 4 hours dancing in heels at a night club last night.
i saw my exs sister - ouch. a lad who i completely blew it with and is completely adorable- ouch. a lad who was a complete dick to me and spent all night with some girl - ouch. and im pretty sure i saw the girl i like with a lad - ouch.
BUT i had a fucking amazing night! i danced more than i ever have in my life, saw my cousin who i havent seen in years, had a good laugh with my mates and ive ended up talking to some lad who i may or may not end up getting with. oh, and i met jack mcmullen (fin sharkey from waterloo road) who signed both my hands.
last night tought me to fuck all the crap that is gonna be flung my way and have fun with all the good stuff.
PEACE OUT MOTHERFUCKERRSSSS

My Best Friend..

I was tweeting some shit about how i wish i had someone to talk to so my best friend texted me to see what was up. i said i was just annoyed cos i liked someone at my dancing and i know that no matter what they would never feel the same. she said that they might do and i said that i knew for fact they wouldnt so she asked why. i made her promise thay nothing would change between us if i told her then said 'its cos im pretty sure that shes straight'
Thank you so much, chelsey. you were so supportive of me finally coming out as bi. ive known for a year or two now and you were the first person i told. i was so scared to say abything as i know how awful people can be but you were great with it. ive been trying all year to finally come out. youve given me the strength to know that one day i will be able to tell everyone. you will never know how much this means to me. i love you so much! thank you <3