i dont know what made me think about this blog but i really want to write one more post. i know i used to write about what i was struggling with in life so heres whats happened to me this year..
in january/february i somehow managed to loose my best friend, the only person i ever felt understood me or even cared about me. i struggled a hell of a lot and broke down every day because of pressures at home and school.
in march/april/may my mammar, the greatest person i have ever met got diagnosed with lung cancer from her years of smoking just after she had made the decision to quit. after a short time going in and out of hospital and having me and my family take care of her 24/7, she passes away and i still find it hard to smile every day when i realise shes no longer here.
in june/july/august/september i spent a lot of time taking hospital trips to prepare for my spinal surgery. i spent 6 days in hospital recovering from the 5 hour operation and im still not fully recovered yet.
but in the middle of all this i have found that i have amazing strength. this is what should have been the worst year of my life but this is also the year that i have managed not to self harm even once. i have become a lot closer to my mum who i have never felt close with before and for nearly 4 months i have had the best boyfriend a girl could wish for. this has been such a tough year yet such a good year and im glad that i have been able to battle all of the awful thoughts to make it to this year and be able to be proud of myself for how strong i have managed to be.
